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  TITLE: The Chrysalids

  AUTHOR: Wyndham, John

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  THE CHRYSALIDS

  JOHN WYNDHAM

  1

  When I was quite small I would sometimes dream of a city — which was strange because it began before I even knew what a city was. But this city, clustered on the curve of a big blue bay, would come into my mind. I could see the streets, and the buildings that lined them, the waterfront, even boats in the harbour; yet, waking, I had never seen the sea, or a boat....

  And the buildings were quite unlike any I knew. The traffic in the streets was strange, carts running with no horses to pull them; and sometimes there were things in the sky, shiny fish-shaped things that certainly were not birds.

  Most often I would see this wonderful place by daylight, but occasionally it was by night when the lights lay like strings of glow-worms along the shore, and a few of them seemed to be sparks drifting on the water, or in the air.

  It was a beautiful, fascinating place, and once, when I was still young enough to know no better, I asked my eldest sister, Mary, where this lovely city could be.

  She shook her head, and told me that there was no such place — not now. But, perhaps, she suggested, I could somehow be dreaming about times long ago. Dreams were funny things, and there was no accounting for them; so it might be that what I was seeing was a bit of the world as it had been once upon a time — the wonderful world that the Old People had lived in; as it had been before God sent Tribulation.

  But after that she went on to warn me very seriously not to mention it to anyone else; other people, as far as she knew, did not have such pictures in their heads, either sleeping or waking, so it would be unwise to mention them.

  That was good advice, and luckily I had the sense to take it. People in our district had a very sharp eye for the odd, or the unusual, so that even my left-handedness caused slight disapproval. So, at that time, and for some years afterwards, I did not mention it to anyone — indeed, I almost forgot about it, for as I grew older the dream came less frequently, and then very rarely.

  But the advice stuck. Without it I might have mentioned the curious understanding I had with my cousin Rosalind, and that would certainly have led us both into very grave trouble — if anyone had happened to believe me. Neither I nor she, I think, paid much attention to it at that time: we simply had the habit of caution. I certainly did not feel unusual. I was a normal little boy, growing up in a normal way, taking the ways of the world about me for granted. And I kept on like that until the day I met Sophie. Even then, the difference was not immediate. It is hind-sight that enables me to fix that as the day when my first small doubts started to germinate.

  That day I had gone off by myself, as I often did. I was, I suppose, nearly ten years old. My next sister, Sarah, was five years older, and the gap meant that I played a great deal alone. I had made my way down the cart-track to the south, along the borders of several fields until I came to the high bank, and then along the top of the bank for quite a way.

  The bank was no puzzle to me then: it was far too big for me to think of as a thing that men could have built, nor had it ever occurred to me to connect it with the wondrous doings of the Old People whom I sometimes heard about. It was simply the bank, coming round in a wide curve, and then running straight as an arrow towards the distant hills; just a part of the world, and no more to be wondered at than the river, the sky, or the hills themselves.

  I had often gone along the top of it, but seldom explored on the farther side. For some reason I regarded the country there as foreign — not so much hostile, as outside my territory. But there was a place I had discovered where the rain, in running down the far side of the bank, had worn a sandy gully. If one sat in the start of that and gave a good push off, one could go swishing down at a fine speed, and finally fly a few feet through the air to land in a pile of soft sand at the bottom.

  I must have been there half a dozen times before, and there had never been anyone about, but on this occasion, when I was picking myself up after my third descent and preparing for a fourth, a voice said: 'Hullo!'

  I looked round. At first I could not tell where it came from; then a shaking of the top twigs in a bunch of bushes caught my eye. The branches parted, and a face looked out at me. It was a small face, sunburned, and clustered about by dark curls. The expression was somewhat serious, but the eyes sparkled. We regarded one another for a moment, then:

  'Hallo,' I responded.

  She hesitated, then pushed the bushes farther apart. I saw a girl a little shorter than I was, and perhaps a little younger. She wore reddish-brown dungarees with a yellow shirt. The cross stitched to the front of the dungarees was of a darker brown material. Her hair was tied on either side of her head with yellow ribbons. She stood still for a few seconds as though uncertain about leaving the security of the bushes, then curiosity got the better of her caution, and she stepped out.

  I stared at her because she was completely a stranger. From time to time there were gatherings or parties which brought together all the children for miles around, so that it was astonishing to encounter one that I had never seen before.

  'What's your name?' I asked her.

  'Sophie,' she told me. 'What's yours?'

  'David,' I said. 'Where's your home?'

  'Over there,' she said, waving her hand vaguely towards the foreign country beyond the bank.

  Her eyes left mine and went to the sandy runnel down which I had been sliding.

  'Is that fun?' she inquired, with a wistful look.

  I hesitated a moment before inviting her, then:

  'Yes,' I told her. 'Come and try.'

  She hung back, turning her attention to me again. She studied me with a serious expression for a second or two, then made up her mind quite suddenly. She scrambled to the top of the bank ahead of me.

  She sped down the runnel with curls and ribbons flying. When I landed she had lost her serious look, and her eyes were dancing with excitement.

  'Again,' she said, and panted back up the bank.

  It was on her third descent that the misadventure occurred. She sat down and shoved off as before. I watched her swish down and come to a stop in a Hurry of sand. Somehow she had contrived to land a couple of feet to the left of the usual place. I made ready to follow, and waited for her to get clear. She did not.

  'Go on,' I told her impatiently.

  She tried to move, and then called up,

  'I can't. It hurts.'

  I risked pushing off, anyway, and landed close beside her.

  'What's the matter?' I asked.

  Her face was screwed up. Tears stood in her eyes.

  'My foot's stuck,' she said.

  Her left foot was buried. I scrabbled the soft sand clear with my hands. Her shoe was jammed in a narrow space between two up-pointed stones. I tried to move it, but it would not budge.

  'Can't you sort of twist it out?' I suggested.

  She tried, lips valiantly compressed.

  'It won't come.'

  'I'll help pull,' I offered.

  'No, no! It hurts,' she protested.

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p; I did not know what to do next. Very clearly her predicament was painful. I considered the problem.

  'We'd better cut the laces so you can pull your foot out of the shoe. I can't reach the knot,' I decided.

  'No!' she said, alarmed. 'No, I mustn't.'

  She was so emphatic that I was baffled. If she were to pull the foot out of the shoe, we might knock the shoe itself free with a stone, but if she would not, I didn't see what was to be done. She lay back on the sand, the knee of the trapped leg sticking up in the air.

  'Oh, it is hurting so,' she said. She could not hold back the tears any longer. They ran down her face. But even then she didn't howl: she made small puppyish noises.

  'You'll have to take it off,' I told her.

  'No!' she protested again. 'No, I mustn't. Not ever. I mustn't.'

  I sat down beside her, at a loss. Both her hands held on to one of mine, gripping it tightly while she cried. Clearly the pain of her foot was increasing. For almost the first time in my life I found myself in charge of a situation which needed a decision. I made it.

  'It's no good. You've got to get it off,' I told her. 'If you don't, you'll probably stay here and die, I expect.'

  She did not give in at once, but at last she consented. She watched apprehensively while I cut the lace. Then she said:

  'Go away! You mustn't look.'

  I hesitated, but childhood is a time thickly beset with incomprehensible, though important, conventions, so I withdrew a few yards and turned my back. I heard her breathing hard. Then she was crying again. I turned round.

  'I can't,' she said, looking at me fearfully through her tears, so I knelt down to see what I could do about it.

  'You mustn't ever tell,' she said. 'Never, never! Promise?'

  I promised.

  She was very brave. Nothing more than the puppy noises.

  When I did succeed in getting the foot free, it looked queer: I mean, it was all twisted and puffy - I didn't even notice then that it had more than the usual number of toes. . . .

  I managed to hammer the shoe out of the cleft, and handed it to her. But she found she could not put it on her swollen foot. Nor could she put the foot to the ground. I thought I might carry her on my back, but she was heavier than I expected, and it was clear that we should not get far like that.

  'I'll have to go and fetch somebody to help,' I told her.

  'No. I'll crawl,' she said.

  I walked beside her, carrying the shoe, and feeling useless. She kept going gamely for a surprisingly long way, but she had to give it up. Her trousers were worn through at the knees, and the knees themselves were sore and bleeding. I had never known anyone, boy or girl, who would have kept on till that pitch; it awed me slightly. I helped her to stand up on her sound foot, and steadied her while she pointed out where her home was, and the trickle of smoke that marked it. When I looked back she was on all fours again, disappearing into the bushes.

  I found the house without much difficulty, and knocked, a little nervously. A tall woman answered. She had a fine, handsome face with large bright eyes. Her dress was russet and a little shorter than those most of the women at home wore, but it carried the conventional cross, from neck to hem and breast to breast, in a green that matched the scarf on her head.

  'Are you Sophie's mother?' I asked.

  She looked at me sharply and frowned. She said, with anxious abruptness:

  'What is it?'

  I told her.

  'Oh!' she exclaimed. 'Her foot!'

  She looked hard at me again for a moment, then she leant the broom she was holding against the wall, and asked briskly:

  'Where is she?'

  I led her by the way I had come. At the sound of her voice Sophie crawled out of the bushes.

  Her mother looked at the swollen, misshapen foot and the bleeding knees.

  'Oh, my poor darling!' she said, holding her and kissing her. Then she added: 'He's seen it?'

  'Yes,' Sophie told her. 'I'm sorry, Mummy. I tried hard, but I couldn't do it myself, and it did hurt so.'

  Her mother nodded slowly. She sighed.

  'Oh, well, it can't be helped now. Up you get.'

  Sophie climbed on to her mother's back, and we all went back to the house together.

  The commandments and precepts one learns as a child can be remembered by rote, but they mean little until there is example — and, even then, the example needs to be recognized.

  Thus, I was able to sit patiently and watch the hurt foot being washed, cold-poulticed, and bound up, and perceive no connexion between it and the affirmation which I had heard almost every Sunday of my life.

  'And God created man in His own image. And God decreed that man should have one body, one head, two arms and two legs: that each arm should be jointed in two places and end in one hand: that each hand should have four fingers and one thumb: that each finger should bear a flat finger-nail. . .'

  And so on until:

  'Then God created woman, also, and in the same image, but with these differences, according to her nature: her voice should be of higher pitch than man's: she should grow no beard: she should have two breasts...'

  And so on again.

  I knew it all, word for word — and yet the sight of Sophie's six toes stirred nothing in my memory. I saw the foot resting in her mother's lap. Watched her mother pause to look down at it for a still moment, lift it, bend to kiss it gently, and then look up with tears in her eyes. I felt sorry for her distress, and for Sophie, and for the hurt foot — but nothing more.

  While the bandaging was finished I looked round the room curiously. The house was a great deal smaller than my home, a cottage, in fact, but I liked it better. It felt friendly. And although Sophie's mother was anxious and worried she did not give me the feeling that I was the one regrettable and unreliable factor in an otherwise orderly life, the way most people did at home. And the room itself seemed to me the better, too, for not having groups of words hanging on the wall for people to point to in disapproval. Instead, this room had several drawings of horses, which I thought very fine.

  Presently, Sophie, tidied up now, and with the tear-marks washed away, hopped to a chair at the table. Quite restored, but for the foot, she inquired with grave hospitality whether I liked eggs.

  Afterwards, Mrs. Wender told me to wait where I was while she carried her upstairs. She returned in a few minutes, and sat down beside me. She took my hand in hers and looked at me seriously for some moments. I could feel her anxiety strongly; though quite why she should be so worried was not, at first, clear to me. I was surprised by her, for there had been no sign before that she could think in that way. I thought back to her, trying to reassure her and show her that she need not be anxious about me, but the thought didn't reach her. She went on looking at me with her eyes shining, much as Sophie's had when she was trying not to cry. Her own thoughts were all worry and shapelessness as she kept looking at me. I tried again, but still couldn't reach them. Then she nodded slowly, and said in words:

  'You're a good boy, David. You were very kind to Sophie. I want to thank you for that.'

  I felt awkward, and looked at my shoes. I couldn't remember anyone saying before that I was a good boy. I knew no form of response designed to meet such an event.

  'You like Sophie, don't you?' she went on, still looking at me.

  'Yes,' I told her. And I added: 'I think she's awfully brave, too. It must have hurt a lot.'

  'Will you keep a secret — an important secret — for her sake?' she asked.

  'Yes — of course,' I agreed, but a little uncertain in my tone for not realizing what the secret was.

  'You — you saw her foot?' she said, looking steadily into my face. 'Her — toes?'

  I nodded. 'Yes,' I said again.

  'Well, that is the secret, David. Nobody else must know about that. You are the only person who does, except her father and me. Nobody else must know. Nobody at all — not ever.'

  'No,' I agreed, and nodded seriously again.
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  There was a pause — at least, her voice paused, but her thoughts went on, as if 'nobody' and 'not ever' were making desolate, unhappy echoes there. Then that changed, and she became tense and fierce and afraid inside. It was no good thinking back to her, so I tried clumsily to emphasize in words that I had meant what I said.

  'Never — not anybody at all,' I assured her earnestly.

  'It's very, very important,' she insisted. 'How can I explain to you?' But she didn't really need to explain. Her urgent, tight-strung feeling of the importance was very plain. Her words were far less potent. She said:

  'If anyone were to find out, they'd — they'd be terribly unkind to her. We've got to see that that never happens.'

  It was as if the anxious feeling had turned into something hard, like an iron rod.

  'Because she has six toes?' I asked.

  'Yes. That's what nobody but us must ever know. It must be a secret between us,' she repeated, driving it home. 'You'll promise, David?'

  'I'll promise. I can swear, if you like,' I offered.

  'The promise is enough,' she told me.

  It was so heavy a promise that I was quite resolved to keep it completely — even from my cousin, Rosalind. Though, underneath, I was puzzled by its evident importance. It seemed a very small toe to cause such a degree of anxiety. But there was often a great deal of grown-up fuss that seemed disproportionate to causes. So I held on to the main point — the need for secrecy.

  Sophie's mother kept on looking at me with a sad but unseeing expression until I became uncomfortable. She noticed when I fidgeted, and smiled. It was a kind smile.

  'All right, then,' she said. 'We'll keep it secret, and never talk about it again?'

  'Yes,' I agreed.

  On the way down the path from the door, I turned round.

  'May I come and see Sophie again soon?' I asked.

  She hesitated, giving the question some thought, then she said:

  'Very well — but only if you are sure you can come without anyone knowing,' she agreed.